Tuesday, September 28, 2010

What a miracle!

I feel normal! I can study! I can't make up for lost time, but I sure as heck can study now.

For those interested in the medical/clinical side of this, I am now taking one milligram of Risperdal (up from one half), 800 mg Seroquel, 15 mg Abilify, 900 mg Lithium, 200 g Lamictal, one B vitamin, half a No-Doz (to counteract the side effects of the Seroquel), and one half milligram of Xanax as needed.

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Totally Destabilizing...

...worse than I've felt for months and months. I am practically unable to study for my three big tests coming up. I feel really, really sick. This feels awful.

(And, as my therapist suggested I say: This feels awful, but it will pass, and I will get through it.)

Feeling Bipolar Again...

...and I have to study for three tests today. I have my wieghted blanket on, I have played a game of solitaire, and at 12:30 I am getting to work. I meant to be working two hours ago, but it didn't work out that way.

Wish me luck! If you are the praying sort, I would appreciate some prayers too.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

New Button

The new button will take you directly to donate to Grady's family grant for his adoption. Apologies for the size; if anyone knows how to make it just a little bit smaller, I would greatly appreciate the help. Thank you!

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Heavy on my Heart

Grady's family (adoptinggrady.blogspot.com) is just about paper ready to bring him home. Now they need...the money. A lot of money. $25,000, more or less. Come on people. Pray, donate through Reece's Rainbow (specify Coffman family), check out their blog, tell your friends, anything! Let's get this show on the road!

Wednesday, September 15, 2010


This is the blog of Grady's new family: adoptinggrady.blogspot.com They are trying to get their paperwork in before November. As they explain on their blog, this is extremely important! I am praying for them.

Sunday, September 12, 2010


Today I went to Target and Michaels to pick up a few necessities, and I found...

A three-pack of Scotch tape, with a roll of double-sided tape included.

For $3.89.

That is less than a dollar per roll!

Target rocks!

Saturday, September 4, 2010


The Xanax is no longer a miracle drug. Last night it did not help at all; today it put me to sleep for hours.


1. Keep experimenting with the Xanax, including dosages and timing.
Pros: No side effects, no addition of yet another new chemical.
Cons: This is not an "official" treatment for bipolar disorder.
2. Risperdal
Pros: This has worked for me in the past.
Cons: At a dose large enough to work, I have experienced prolactin side effects.
3. Depacote:
Pros: Triple mood stabilizers are supposed to be very effective, would automatically raise my Lamictal levels.
Cons: Potential for polycystic ovarian syndrome, not usually used in young women of childbearing age.

That's where I am now!

Friday, September 3, 2010

Don't be shy...

Leave comments! Please! I love them!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Deeply Happy

Coming out of a bipolar episode and back into the "real" world always fills me with a happiness deeper than any other I have ever experienced. It is just so sweet to be thinking clearly, to be able to love and be loved, to really take part in class. Even homework takes on a sense of fun because I can actually do it, with no loud music (to combat depression) or weighted blanket (to combat mania).

Truly, everything feels wonderful, as the conversation below will show:

Me: Hello, "John"; isn't the world beautiful?

"John": It is. It's also hot out.

Me: Who the he*ll cares? Life is beautiful!

(And yes, admittedly, it was actually hot out.)

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

The Miracle of Xanax

I feel totally, absolutely, wonderfully normal! No symptoms at all! It happened so fast that I am a little bit suspicious (I could be headed for mania), but I am enjoying every minute of it. God is truly in control...perfect timing on so many levels.