Monday, November 23, 2009

Still Grieving

And right now, I'm too sadly wide-awake to go to bed. If I go to bed I will have sad dreams, which will wake me up and then I'll be more sad. Then tomorrow I'll be tired and even more sad...

Yes, I got "well" quickly. But I'm not truly well; I'm in remission. Even if it's a permanent remission, for the rest of my life I will have to take mood stabilizers every morning and every evening. For the rest of my life, I will have to deal with the extreme thirst that is a side effect of Lithium. For the rest of my life, I will never again be well.

All this for the rest of my life.

1 comment:

  1. Have you ever heard the story, "Welcome to Holland?" Here is a link--

    It's about a parent who finds out her child is handicapped. Not what she expected, the loss of some dreams, mourning, but there are still some lovely things about the destination. I hope the story encourages you, even though you are in your own Holland and you really wanted to be somewhere else. As your post on 100 things shows, you are NOT defined by bi-polar.


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