True or False:
If I hadn't gone to Israel, I wouldn't have gotten sick.
If I hadn't been open with the information about my diagnosis, it wouldn't really be true.
If I don't join support groups, I won't really be sick.
There is something I could have done to prevent my illness.
I deserve this.
False. All of the above statements are false. Not one is true.
I am sick. I am actually, truly sick. And I will always have to take my medication. And my life will have limits. I am sick.
And I am overwhelmed by grief. I cannot even think about tomorrow.